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You know what's untenable? Not being honest with yourself. And not asking yourself enough questions. About a year ago,  I wrote here that I don't ask myself "Why?" often enough. "Why photography?" "Why do I photograph what I photograph?"

Being able to intelligently and cogently articulate what you do and why is a crucial part of one's development as a creative person. I've always had a difficult time with this and I think now I know why.


 

 

  

all photos © Danielle Scruggs


 © Danielle Scruggs
D.C. is still covered in a thick layer of snow. Bus service and above-ground train stations are shut down so that means I'm still in my apartment reading books, watching too much TV, catching up on the gabrillion posts in my Google Reader, and trying to figure out if Google Buzz is awesome or horrifying. Anyway, I was inspired to try something new and share some music I've been listening to lately. I hope you enjoy it. (By the by, I fixed a commenting bug on this website. So if you want to leave any feedback, ask a question, or just say hi, please feel free to do just that.)
 
A Wintry Mix
(download)

01 In Between-Bilal Salaam
02 Don't Close Your Eyes (Moonsatellite remix)- Robert Glasper + Bilal
03 Kalifornia- Mos Def
04 White Drapes-Mos Def
05 My World (Nas Salute)- Jay Electronica
06 One for the Monica Lingas Band- The Last Electro-Acoustic Space Jazz & Percussion Ensemble
07 Cold Nights and Rainy Days-The Electro-Acoustic Space Jazz & Percussion Ensemble
08 Perverted Undertone-Prefuse 73
09 Sizuuuuuuuurpin-The Roots
10 Choir Fire- The Roots
11 High and Dry (Radiohead Cover)- Bilal
12 Love Czars II-Sa-Ra Creative Partners (Featuring Jay Electronica + Ta'Raach)
13 Life In Marvelous Times (Live from Newport Jazz Festival)-Mos Def                                
14 Little Brother- Blackstar
15 Mountain Sunlight (feat. Mos Def) - Jazz Liberatorz
16 Parasol- The Sea and Cake
17 Broken Dreams-Yesterday's New Quintet   
18 Soft and Sleep-The Sea and Cake
19 Jonez In My Bonez-D'Angelo
20 No More-J*Davey
21 Human Nature (Cover, Live from Newport Jazz Festival)-Mos Def
22 Booty/GreatDayInTheMorning-D'Angelo
23 Get Together-J*Davey

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Thanks to the few feet of snow that have been dumped on D.C. (with more on the way soon, apparently), I've spent the past four days watching several movies, cooking, baking, reading books, and spending too much time here and here. Oh, and taking photos as well.

Movies
+ Doubt (There were pockets of good acting in this showdown between Meryl Streep and Phillip Seymour Hoffman as a nun and priest, with Streep's character convinced that Hoffman's character is unsavory but my suspension of disbelief never quite kicked in. I just found it to be too over-the-top to be fully engaging. Viola Davis definitely earned that Oscar nomination however.)

+Miles Davis: Cool Jazz Sound (An amazing 1959 TV performance by Miles Davis and his quintet (John Coltrane, Wynton Kelly, Paul Chambers, Jimmy Cobb) as well as the Gil Evans orchestra performing songs from Kind of Blue and Miles Ahead. Tremendous.)

+Iris (I usually like Kate Winslet but I couldn't really engage with this movie about a writer who succumbs to Alzheimer's. It had a pretentious, paint-by-the-numbers biopic feel to me. Maybe I just need to watch it again.)

+An American Affair (Gretchen Mol stars as a mysterious artist involved in a clandestine affair with John F. Kennedy. She is also the object of obsession of her teenage neighbor, played by Cameron Bright [of Birth fame/infamy]. Some of the cinematography was gorgeous but for the most part I didn't like this movie all that much either. Most of the acting was very stilted. It looks like they shot the bulk of it in Baltimore as a stand-in for 1960s D.C. so I appreciated seeing some of my old stomping grounds on celluloid.)

+A Good Day to Be Black and Sexy (I didn't quite expect this movie--a collection of vignettes set during one day in Los Angeles--to have so much, um, sex in it. But the acting and cinematography were great and the director had an interesting point of view on what makes relationships work as well as what makes them fall apart.)

+Sex and the Single Girl (It was a real treat seeing Tony Curtis and Natalie Wood cut it up in this romantic comedy from 1964. Its views on gender roles are eye-roll inducing but hey, it was made in 1964. Another bonus: Count Basie and his Orchestra helmed the soundtrack.)

+Soul Train: The Hippest Trip in America (Documentary on the history and rise of Soul Train, one of the Greatest Shows to Ever Air in the History of Television. It aired on VH1 over the weekend and made me ridiculously happy. Vintage clips of my favorite artists abounded---Marvin Gaye, Curtis Mayfield, The Jackson 5, Stevie Wonder, Gladys Knight and the Pips. Since it's VH1, it will more than likely run ad infinitum, so if you missed the initial run, you'll be able to catch it again.)

Books:

I'm still working my way through Going to Meet the Man by James Baldwin. I know it's a bit of a cliché to be Black, nerdy, intelligent and be a little in love with Baldwin but he is one of my favorite writers. He was adept at making quietly devastating observations on life--what motivates us to love, and to hate. I also recently finished The Way Home by George Pelecanos. It was my first time reading one of his novels and now I need to find more, especially since he wrote for The Wire, another one of the Greatest Shows in the History of Television.


 
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I was looking through old notebooks and sketchbooks of mine earlier this evening and I ran across some things I wrote down that might explain why I've been working with self-portraits as of late:

"Our whole guise is like giving a sign to the world to think of us in a certain way but there's a point between what you want people to know about you and what you can't help people knowing about you. And that has to do with what I've always called the gap between intention and effect."- Diane Arbus: An Aperture Monograph (From a June 2008 notebook)

"I think the reason I don't turn the camera on myself all that much is because I'm afraid of letting people see who I am and [that] they'll notice something...unsavory about me. But you can't call yourself an artist if you're censoring yourself out of fear."- Yours truly (From October 2007 notebook, inspired by a Mickalene Thomas artist talk)

I remember Thomas also said "Go back to yourself" at that lecture, when you're struggling with another project. Explore who you are and what you're all about. I have to say, these experiments have been pretty interesting to say the least. I like some of the results I'm getting.



For your perusal, I have updated my portfolio site with event, concert, and editorial photos I have shot over the years for The Couch Sessions, Liberator Magazine, The Washington Post and others.

Take a look and leave feedback if you're so inclined.

Have a great evening.